My Courage
“’Go back?’ he thought. No good at all! ‘Go sideways?’ Impossible! ‘Go forward?’ Only thing to do! On we go!” – the Hobbit
“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.” –Matthew 6:25-34
Since graduating college, I have spent most of these past months in worry. I worry about nearly everything I’m afraid of many things. I’m afraid of where I’m at in life right now. I’m afraid of what the future holds. I’m also afraid that if I don’t get my life started right NOW, I won’t have much of a life to look forward to.
Another thing in particular that has me worried is that I will never be able to move out of my comfort zone. There are so many things I have dreamt about doing in my life after finishing school. Now that that time has come, I feel as though I’m not ready yet. I feel hesitant to go out and do the things I want. I’ve become too comfortable in my comfort zone.
Sometimes, we get too comfortable in where we are at in our lives. We become afraid of stepping out of our comfort zone.
A story that relates perfectly to this is that of Bilbo Baggins. Bilbo was perfectly comfortable living in his hobbit hole in the Shire. No one bothered him. Bilbo had his books, his chair and his second breakfasts. Bilbo had created a reasonably safe life for himself. Although Bilbo had once dreamed of leaving the Shire in search of adventure, fear of the outside world had set in. Bilbo decided he was more comfortable in his hobbit hole than out making an adventure of life. His heirlooms and books became more important to him than the quality of life. Bilbo’s life was comfortable.
Keeping life comfortable soon changed once Gandalf and the dwarves showed up. Gandalf urged him to come along on the adventure to the Misty Mountains. Being perfectly comfortable in his life, Bilbo declined the offer.
“Life is not in your books and your maps. It’s out there.” Gandalf told him.
Fear keeps us from becoming who we were meant to be and doing the things we want. As much as we ask God to take our fears away from us, he does not always let us take the easy way out. Instead, he works with our fears, teaching us how to overcome them.
“The Lord is my shepherd; I have all that I need. He lets me rest in green meadows; he leads me beside peaceful streams. He renews my strength. He guides me along right paths, bringing honor to his name. Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. “- Psalm 23:1-4
Along his adventure, Bilbo walked through many dark valleys and came across many dangerous creatures. While he was still afraid and all hope seemed lost, Gandalf always came when he needed him. Gandalf came to Bilbo’s aid when the orcs and the goblins were too much. Although it seemed like he was gone forever at times, Gandalf did not forget about Bilbo and his journey. While on his journey, Bilbo did things he could have only imaged in his books at home. He outsmarted Gollom, escaped the orcs and defeated a dragon. Bilbo not only returned with stories to tell, but with more courage and faith in himself than when he left.
Gandalf came to Bilbo in his hobbit hole and encouraged him to go and make an adventure out of life. Gandalf would not have wanted Bilbo to go somewhere that he did think Bilbo was not equipped to go to.
Like Gandalf and Bilbo, God never really leaves us on our journeys through dark valleys and orc-infested areas. It might feel like he does at times, but that is just the fear talking. Even in our darkest times, God is there to guide us through green meadows and peaceful streams. No matter the circumstance, no matter the fears we face, God loves us as his children. God will walk with us through the darkness.
Going forward is the only way to go.