This is the End

At this moment, I will no longer continue to write any more blog posts. 

I started this blog to try and reach out to others. In the beginning, I started writing because I thought I could help other people. I thought that I could write about God and problems that we face in a way that was fun and a in a way that people could relate to through things they love. Unfortunately, it did not work out that way.

I write this not to complain or because I am feeling sorry for myself, but because the blogging game is no longer fun. It started out fun, but now that I am out of ideas and no longer have anyone reading what posts I can come up with, the fun is gone. 

I will miss writing. I will miss people telling me that my post helped them. I will miss coming up with fun ideas, but it is time to move on. 

Thank you for everyone who commented on my posts and read them!
Geeks of the Gospel


Making Life an Adventure

My Courage

“’Go back?’ he thought. No good at all! ‘Go sideways?’ Impossible! ‘Go forward?’ Only thing to do! On we go!”the Hobbit


“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.” –Matthew 6:25-34


Since graduating college, I have spent most of these past months in worry. I worry about nearly everything I’m afraid of many things. I’m afraid of where I’m at in life right now. I’m afraid of what the future holds. I’m also afraid that if I don’t get my life started right NOW, I won’t have much of a life to look forward to.

Another thing in particular that has me worried is that I will never be able to move out of my comfort zone. There are so many things I have dreamt about doing in my life after finishing school. Now that that time has come, I feel as though I’m not ready yet. I feel hesitant to go out and do the things I want. I’ve become too comfortable in my comfort zone.


Sometimes, we get too comfortable in where we are at in our lives. We become afraid of stepping out of our comfort zone.


A story that relates perfectly to this is that of Bilbo Baggins. Bilbo was perfectly comfortable living in his hobbit hole in the Shire. No one bothered him. Bilbo had his books, his chair and his second breakfasts. Bilbo had created a reasonably safe life for himself. Although Bilbo had once dreamed of leaving the Shire in search of adventure, fear of the outside world had set in. Bilbo decided he was more comfortable in his hobbit hole than out making an adventure of life. His heirlooms and books became more important to him than the quality of life. Bilbo’s life was comfortable.

Keeping life comfortable soon changed once Gandalf and the dwarves showed up. Gandalf urged him to come along on the adventure to the Misty Mountains. Being perfectly comfortable in his life, Bilbo declined the offer.

“Life is not in your books and your maps. It’s out there.” Gandalf told him.


Fear keeps us from becoming who we were meant to be and doing the things we want. As much as we ask God to take our fears away from us, he does not always let us take the easy way out. Instead, he works with our fears, teaching us how to overcome them.


The Lord is my shepherd; I have all that I need. He lets me rest in green meadows; he leads me beside peaceful streams. He renews my strength. He guides me along right paths, bringing honor to his name. Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. “- Psalm 23:1-4


Along his adventure, Bilbo walked through many dark valleys and came across many dangerous creatures. While he was still afraid and all hope seemed lost, Gandalf always came when he needed him. Gandalf came to Bilbo’s aid when the orcs and the goblins were too much. Although it seemed like he was gone forever at times, Gandalf did not forget about Bilbo and his journey. While on his journey, Bilbo did things he could have only imaged in his books at home.  He outsmarted Gollom, escaped the orcs and defeated a dragon.  Bilbo not only returned with stories to tell, but with more courage and faith in himself than when he left.

Gandalf came to Bilbo in his hobbit hole and encouraged him to go and make an adventure out of life. Gandalf would not have wanted Bilbo to go somewhere that he did think Bilbo was not equipped to go to.

Like Gandalf and Bilbo, God never really leaves us on our journeys through dark valleys and orc-infested areas. It might feel like he does at times, but that is just the fear talking. Even in our darkest times, God is there to guide us through green meadows and peaceful streams. No matter the circumstance, no matter the fears we face, God loves us as his children. God will walk with us through the darkness.

Going forward is the only way to go.




Watch Me

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid of terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” –Deuteronomy 31:6

When I was younger, I loved to watch superhero cartoons. Everything from the X-Men to the Fantastic Four, I watched religiously. I loved watching all the heroes with their different super powers defeat the bad guys, saving the day. Everyone loved them because they were special and could do special things. I loved them for that, too.

As I grew older, I still loved my Marvel heroes, only more secretly. When you’re a teenage girl, you’re not really supposed to love comics and superheroes. I still loved how their unique personalities and special powers could affect the story lines. These characters were special to me because I was not special, or at least I didn’t feel that way in high school (But who does?). I wished that I could do special things like they could.

Today, I am a newly college graduate. I am having some difficulty with deciding what to do with my life. I’m not sure what to do, but I can feel my quarter life crisis beginning! Needless to say, I feel afraid of the future. I have doubted whether I can do anything special at all with my life. My worst fear has always been a life unlived. I don’t have any special super powers and I will probably never do anything as super as saving the world from Ultron….

Now that I’m older, I have come to love and appreciate some of the other Marvel characters besides the super heroes (i.e. Loki <3). One character in particular I’ve come to like is Agent Carter. I didn’t really know about her as a little kid, but she has become one of my absolute favorites. But, hold on….Agent Carter? She doesn’t even have any special powers! It probably wasn’t until I discovered Agent Carter did I realize that you don’t have to be super to be a hero.

Agent Carter was involved in espionage and special military work during a time when women could not really succeed in either. She could have done what society expected women to do, but instead she chose a different route. The world said, “no, you can’t”, but Agent Carter answered back, “Watch me”.

 Is any of this sounding familiar? Moses went through a trial similar to Agent Carter’s. Moses was minding his own business, living as a shepherd in the desert, when God called him to do something big: go to Pharaoh and lead the people of Israel out of Egypt. To this, Moses replied: “Who am I am I to appear before Pharaoh? “Who am I to lead the people of Israel out of Egypt?” – Exodus 3:11. And God told him: “I will be with you. And this is your sign that I am the one who has sent you.” –Exodus 3:12.

But again, Moses made excuses: “O Lord, I’m nor very good with words. I never have been, and I’m not now, even though you have spoken to me. I get tongue-tied, and my words get tangled. Lord, please, send anyone else!” –Exodus 4:10-13

Moses said, “No, I can’t”, but God answered back, “Watch me”.

Sometimes, we have an idea of what we would like to do with our lives. We think about where we want to go, when we want to do things…but then we stop. We panic over what might go wrong. What if we end up not liking the path we choose? What if people are unfriendly with us? What if we tell people what we want to do and they tell us, “No, you’ll never make it. You won’t do well in that area.” Do we agree with them, saying, “You’re right, I’ll do something with my life that you want me to do”? Or do we tell them, “Watch what I can do”?

Like Moses or Agent Carter, God can call on us to do things that seem too difficult. Whether it’s standing up to Pharaoh or breaking the molds of society, we say, “no, I can’t”. Moses wanted to hide behind his inadequacies. He was too afraid to fulfill the plans that God had for him. We come up with reasons why we can never fulfill the dreams we have for ourselves. We don’t have super powers to make us great. God doesn’t see it that way.


“Compromise where you can. Where you can’t, don’t. Even if everyone is telling you that something wrong is something right. Even if the whole world is telling you to move, it is your duty to plant yourself like a tree, look them in the eye, and say, no, you move”. – Agent Carter

A New Hope

A long time ago, in a galaxy far, far away….

Luke Skywalker lived on a farm with his aunt and uncle.  More than anything, Luke wanted to be a pilot, but his uncle needed him to stay and help on the farm.  Luke was stuck on Tatooine feeling like his life was going nowhere.  Luke’s life events had reached their ending point and he expected nothing else to come his way.

…or so he thought…

Have you ever just felt like you were stuck?  You’ve reached a point in your life where you just felt like, “What next?” or “Where is my life even going?”.  You can’t seem to come up with any plans for your future, besides maybe becoming a homeless bohemian traveling from place to place.  Asking for the advice of others does not seem to be much help, either.  Most people have told you just to “trust that God has things worked out”, to which you think, “this is serious, I need answers”.

“So be truly glad.  There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while.  These trials will show you that your faith is genuine.  It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold-though your faith is far more precious than mere gold.  So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world.”  -1 Peter 1:6-7

Reading this always helps me feel better.  Having gone through some of the struggles and set backs I have had over the last few years, this passage gives me confidence for the future.  It’s never really easy putting your trust in someone you can’t physically see or hear.  We watch others go forward in their lives while we continue to sit and wait for our own to take off.  Not all of us have the patience for something to come along.  So what do we do??

In my experience, the best we can do is to have confidence in God.  It’s stressful not knowing what we should spend our lives doing.  God knows how our lives will go and directs them the way they should go.  Not only can this passage apply to what we will do in the future, but also to how we feel.  We may be frustrated, suffering from the pain of an ended relationship, or not having faith in the future.  Whatever the case my be, our struggles will only strengthen our faith in God.

…as fire tests and purifies gold”  Fire is hot and it hurts.  Trials can be a painful process to go through.  Once you are through it all, you will feel so much better.  Luke went through the trials of losing his aunt and uncle, having to battle the galactic empire and destroying the Death Star.  Although we may never have to go through trials quit this epic, it is nice to know that we have someone big we can rely on through troubling times.

So here’s to hoping that things work out.  That we don’t give into despair and bitterness in our wait for life to happen.  Let’s hope that we can get through these trials in our lives and come outwit a strengthened faith.


When your faith remains strong, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor”

Why Nerd Girls Will Most Likely End Up Alone

That Fangirl

You knew at a young age that you were different from all the other little girls.  Instead of driving to work in a convertible, Barbie drove a Millennium Falcon.  Instead of Ken, she dated one of your Batman action figures.  While all the other girls were watching My Little Pony, you felt much happier watching X-Men cartoons.  You enjoyed reading your books and crying over any fictional character who died in the story.

Not much changed when you became older.  You still love your books and your superheroes, the only difference is that you’re into shipping and OTP’s.  Maybe once you finished high school, you stopped crushing on real guys and started crushing on the Doctor, Sherlock or Castiel.  You wear shirts that only people of that fandom will understand, reading things like, “Fish Sticks and Custartd” or “Sherlocked”.  You jump up and down with happiness when you find someone…

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Because It’s the Right Thing


“The Lord is good and dos what is right; he shows the proper path to those who go astray.  He leads the humble in doing right, teaching them his way.”

-Psalm 25:8-9


Hello, everyone!

Sorry, for the lack of posts on here for a while, but it’s been a busy couple of months!  With every minute of my spare time going towards working on projects, I hadn’t really gotten a chance to come up with writing ideas for my site.  Now, with a couple of weeks without classes and assignments, I finally have time to write again!

Along with my free time came something I have been waiting years to finally do:  SEE STAR WARS EPISODE VII!  Now, I waited as long as I could to write this, so everyone should have seen it by now.  If you haven’t, then you might want to skip the next paragraph.

In this episode, the Empire is gone, but there is a new power, called the First Order.  Like the Empire, the First Order also uses storm troopers (not clones this time).  One in particular is Finn, one of our main characters.  At the beginning of the story, a rebel pilot is captured by the First Order and is being tortured for information.  Finn is instructed to moved him to a cell, but instead sneaks the pilot onto a Ti-Fighter.

The rebel pilot asks Finn why he, a storm trooper, would do this.

“Because, it’s the right thing to do.”  Finn tells him.

With this being the beginning of a new year, many of us want to make a fresh start.  We look back on this past year or 2015 at the good things and the bad things.  We can see that year as another learning experience or wonder where we went wrong.  We can sit and wonder to ourselves, “Was what I did right?”

We’re all sinners.  We have all done something bad or have had someone do something bad to us.  Even though he was working for the First Order (doing bad things for bad people) Finn wanted to start over and do something right.  Just because we sin doesn’t mean that we can’t be forgiven.

“If you forgive those who sin against you, your heavenly Father will forgive you.  But if you refuse to forgive others, you Father will not forgive you.”

-Matthew 6:14

Starting over isn’t easy.  Making a fresh start can mean forgiving those who have done something that has hurt you.  Whether that act was intentional or not, it is important.  Asking God for forgiveness is easy, but giving it to others may not be.  If you want to start over and move on from what someone has done to you, the first step is forgiveness.  In my experience, not forgiving someone had stopped me from moving on with my life.  A certain area of my life was put on pause because I was too hurt and wrapped up in my own anger to find it in myself to forgive them at the time.

Like Finn, the storm trooper, we’ve done some things in the past we are not proud of.  We wish to start over, clean ourselves of our sins and be a better person.  So, like Finn, the rebel, We look to God to forgive us and ask for the strength to forgive others.

So, is forgiving the right thing to do?


Geeks of the Gospel

“We also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.  And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out His love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom He has given us.” -Romans 5:3-5

So, not sure if you’ve notice, but I’ve been focusing on reading Romans this past month.  I was reading through about the law God gave us, sin, the usual.  Then, the scripture above caught my attention.  Rejoice in suffering?  Why in the world would anyone want to rejoice when they’re suffering?  After all, we’re only human, so we should have the right to feel miserable when we’re going through a hard time, right?  So, I thought about it and discussed it some more until it finally made sense to me.

We can rejoice in suffering because we know that it can help us develop character…

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I’m Still Here!

Hello, everyone!

Sorry, for not posting anything lately. I’ve been super busy with classes and other commitments. With all the craziness, it’s been difficult to come up with something good to write about. Just wanted to let you all know that I haven’t stopped blogging, I’m just busy!

This Might Hurt…

“He was in the world, and the world was made through him, yet the world did not know him. He came to his own, and his own people did not receive him. But to all who did receive him, who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God, who were born, not of blood nor of the will of the flesh nor of the will of man, but of God” -John 1:10-13

Hello, all!  It’s September now!  And you know what that means:  the start of another school year (boo!)!  And with the beginning of another year comes opportunities for new things.  New classes, learning new things, going to new places, meeting new people and starting new relationships.  Now that I’m a senior in college, I’ve found that time is running out to cross things off my college bucket list (yes, I have one).  One thing I have been hesitant to add to my list is a dating relationship.  Since my freshman year, I have tried and failed at making someone my boyfriend.  As the years have passed, the prospects of me getting into a serious relationship have become bleak.  I haven’t really given up…I’ve just stopped dwelling on this “problem” and have since moved on to more important things…like graduating.
Back when I was an underclassman, I felt like I was given the snub by God when it came to having my wish for a boyfriend granted.  I didn’t understand if it were my fault or God’s for being single for so long.  I didn’t understand what made everyone else so special that they could date since junior high and I couldn’t.  Like I said before, I tried and failed at relationships in college.  I’ve been led on, rejected, tossed to the side because I wouldn’t sleep with them, and told the things I enjoyed made me “too much of a friend”.  So, instead of asking God for help with this like I should have, I decided to get angry with Him.  I even went so far as to decide that I didn’t trust Him because he didn’t know me or what I wanted.
At some point, we all have this love/hate relationship with God.  We get upset because He doesn’t give us what we want or we don’t think we’re good enough for Him.  Some of us decide to walk out of the relationship, never to return.  While God does love us, it’s up to us to decide how the relationship will go and how we define it.
Our relationship with God can, in a way, be compared to that of Thor and Loki.  Related by blood or not, Thor still loves Loki.  After countless mistakes, evil plots or attempts to kill him, Thor still finds it in his heart to forgive Loki.  In both comics and movies, Thor continuously expresses his love towards his brother.
While Loki is told time after time that he is loved, he either refuses to believe it or rejects it.  Loki doesn’t believe that he is as loved as Thor.  He doesn’t believe that Thor knows what it’s like to be hurt or struggle, and so he gets angry with Thor.
Like Loki and Thor, we can do the same with God.  When we don’t get our way, we get upset.  When we have our hearts broken and we get hurt, who do we get angry at?  Of course, we get angry with God.  God couldn’t possibly know what it’s like to have His heart thrown on the ground and stomped on, could he?  Loki didn’t think Thor knew what it felt like to lose something and suffer.
Thor was thrown out of his home by his own father.  Thor lost his hammer.  Thor had his arm cut off by Malekith.  Thor lost Jane to cancer.  Thor lost Loki multiple times.  How many times in the history of the world has someone said they didn’t believe in God?  How many times has someone said they didn’t want anything to do with God or talk to Him?  I think even the creator of the universe knows what it’s like to get hurt.
I thought having another person to love and be in a relationship would fix all my problems.  But all these attempts at love did nothing but bring me misery.  Like Thor, God is always there, coming to us in love, but like Loki, we continuously reject him for different reasons.
Being rejected hurts.  We can go so far as to make elaborate plans for that special person, fix the Bifrost to find them, or do as God did and send our own son to die.  Even with doing all those big things, others can still choose not to love us back.
Unlike people, God is always there.  It can be a complicated relationship, but it can’t be any more complicated than saying you love someone one minute and the next, you’re sending the entire Chitaurie army after them (Avengers reference…just go with it).  It may be a hard relationship sometimes, but it’s one that’s worth it.
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A Lesson From Ms. Frizzle

That Fangirl

Take chances!  Make mistakes!  Get Messy!”

Most of you will be familiar with this quote shouted before every field trip by Ms. Frizzle of the Magic School Bus.  Back in the 90’s I loved this show as a little kid.  After the show ended and the years went on, I never thought much about it again.  After some recent life experiences, my subconscious was awoken and this quote is what it brought me.

While I have been enjoying college with all of my friends, interesting classes and new found interests, I sometimes have this nagging feeling that something else was missing from my college/20’s experience:  a relationship.

A serious relationship is something I have been wanting since I was in middle school.  Although, I did date in high school, they fell short of anything you would call “serious” and not romantic at all.  And so, I was left to wait for…

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